My best friend died last year August. I feel very sad. i already have very friend some more she is my best friend. She know a lot of thing about me and I know a lot of thing about her. Now I dont have any best friend who I can talk to. So now I gt a lot thing I keep inside me. I don't say it. Even though I look very cheerful. I dont really trust people easily. I feel very insecure. Haha... I don't even talk about my thing to my family. Don't ask me why. Cause I also don't know.

Now I'm working in casino. I met this guy from casino. He's from China. Not bad la. Tall, character not bad and look not bad. But will my mother accept him. I don't mind go to China with him. But the problem now is what I wan to do with this relationship. Sometimes I was thinking I can't communicate with him. But not all the time. Very seldom. Now I was like is he really the one that I wan my future with. Is not that I'm racist or what. But what if my mother dont agree. What should I do? Do I really go to China with him if my mum don't agree. That's the problem. What if I regret my decision. Is not that I can't come back Singapore. He doesn't wan to stay in Singapore. The most he say he will go back China and few years later and he will come back work in Singapore 2 yrs then go back China. Who can tell me what to do. Am I really a person suitable to be in a relationship or should I stay single? He used to work in casino. At least I can meet him at work. But he was transferred back to hq. Our off day is different also. We can talk everything. The problem now is what I wan to do with this relationship and will my mum accept him. What is she doesn't accept. Then I will decide weather I will wan to go China with him anot. Will I regret my decision? Will I take a risk and just go with him? He say that the most he will stay in for another 4 yrs. by then he will go back. I say I'm fine but you have to make my min say yes. Then he say what if she don't agree. It will be the worries that i mention above. Haiz... What to do sia.. Who can tell me what to do? Confuse

Yesterday while working I feel very tired, restless it's like 活着好累. Dunno is like I too stress or what. I don't know to do what in my life or what I wan to be in the future. Times pass very fast. It's already half way throught the year. Times pass fast that how I pass each day sia. I doesn't have much friends.maybe I nt too outgoing or what. My friend is falling sick for quite sometime le. Yesterday when I'm working, I wasn't able to use the phone. But my another friended sage me that my sick friend was hospitalized. And ask me to call her parent but it was midnight already I can't call. I'm thinking she can't have anything happened nw. Otherwise I doesn't have close friends. I have other friend but nt so close friend like her.if anything happened who should I talk to. But something I won't talk to her. Actually I'm very lonely. My phone contact only have my work colleague number and a few friend number nia. There's no one cared for me . I feel like I'm all alone. Time goes by every minute . Getting older each day. I might wan to adopt a child and raise by myself. Althought it's hard but I gonna tried. I wan to liposuction bit no money hw. Who can sponsor me.

Recently I feel lonely at heart. Out of sudden sia. Feel like being loved by someone. Haha. Most guys like slims girls. I'm fat n ugly who will loved by. Even I lose a bit if weight but still gt long way to go. See he out goes

Now I'm working at sentosa. I meet a lot of people in there. My friend or which I know either have bf or they are married. My friend mum start to ask her to find a bf le. Saying that she isn't small le. What about me? I have been losing abit of weight and still losing nw. Till now I lose about 5-6kg of weight during 3 mth. Hope to lose some more. Who will like me. Plus I might not get married. There's one guy at work I think is still ok la. But I dunno about him.

So long never post something le. I leave Keppel a few mth ago. Currently working at other place. Now I'm studying diploma in integrated logistic management. Few more mth gg to graduate. Now working at other place. Last yr went to Bangkok and place a lot of stuff. Planning next yr to go Bangkok again or Taiwan. See how it goes. I hope it's Bangkok. But news to discuss with friend again. But still gt long time.

Seriously I don't like operation. Hai.. I jus take over the account not long ago. But it's like gt alot of problem. The colleague who suppose to do this account went to do other new customer so I have to take over. Now I gt new problem again. How? I hav tender my resignation letter. But my colleague ask me to stay. Cos other place might not have the same as what u working now and other things. But I tell them my pay is too low excluding pt. even if add the or is still lower other people basic pay. Yes. It's gd to stay on as the economic is getting slow. And the benefit like no bad la. But my pay is not enough. If my pay is not bad would I want to resign for the time being. I think I will stay longer awhile and decide wether I wan to go or stay. The executive say will talk to boss about my Pau. If maybe increase my pay I might stay. Sometimes I think I'm useless. Cos my communication skill is not that gd plus I never learnt enough of the customer things and other things. I think I look like a failure. Althought I get along with the colleague quite well and play around, if I really quit I think I will the colleague and the environment. Everyday ot plus basic pay not so gd. See how it goes. 30 march will be my last day of work. See how it goes. If boss really didn't say anything then no notice I take its say he approve my resignation letter. I Will miss the times that I hav in the office.

It's been a long time I write something. It's a brand new year. Last year gt my 13 mth bonus but dunno when get company bonus. Now I'm still working at Keppel. End of next month I work in Keppel for 1 years ready. Recently, I went out to be a delivery assistant. At least can be out of office for a while. I have learn how to other account so that I can be back up for other people . Nid to learn kpi and others la. I dunno want to go be delivery assistant or stay in office be coordinator. Feel restless in office. I nid a break. It's better to take leave near the end of the year. I dunno want to stay in office. Dunno my boss let me go out be delivery assistant. I think the answer is no. And seldom girls do delivery assistant. And company policy dun let gals be delivery assistant

Time pass so fast. Working at Keppel amost half year. I have given a new position as a customer service coordinator. Dunno wad is the job scoop. From warehouse. Coordinator to customer service coordinator is it consider a promotion. I quite happy to work at this company. Although it's stress but the manager,colleague is good. Sometimes they are serious but once you know everyone well they are nt bad.

I recieve the confirmation letter on 12 June. If I wan to quit nw I hav to give 1 mth notice. My job nw is stressful. All the staff tat do the job I'm doing nw all quit le or they are temp staff. I'm the contract staff. Tired. I 1 person do 3 people job. I think from next mth start I 1 person do 4-5 people job. Hau have tell Catherine and us before tat I people do 3 people job. He hav tell the boss to hire 1 people to help me alot of times le. But the boss no wan. I hav tell the boss also. Maybe Ge see me recently tat the order for order is quite little. So he think no nid but the orders for tmr is alot. The order recently is unusual cos only the first few day of the mth and mth end the order is little but the orders is little for thes weeks. Nw the order suddenly alot. I hear from zhi wei n Catherine tat the order gg to alot. Cos there are alot of container shipment comming in n Malaysia truck too. Next week there are abt 6-10 container coming in. Tats means order gg to be alot. I really nid to ask the boss again to hire 1 people to help me. Temp or contract staff it would be gd. Haha.

Aug gg for holiday to Taiwan. Hotel have been booked and nw left the air ticket nia. This mth must earn ot cos the ot next mth cn take. I last Friday take 1 say annual leave and today clear my off in lieu. My office nobody noe hw to do my work. Why? Tmr go back must clear 4 days of work which is Thursday to sat and today document. Other account gt 2 people do. I do the account nobody noe hw to do. Only I know. Althought the office gt 3 people noe my account thing but nobody noe hw to do my work. Tmr must tell my manager to hire 1 people to help me.otherwise I aug on leave then no people do my work then customer will complain sia. I only on leave for 2 days then nid to do a lot of thing le.hai. Ask me transfer back to main office then no help me. They gr help la like chase for invoices and others la.Seriously I nt make of metal. I'm only a human.i cnt do anything myself wan la

This mth is the 4th mth working at keppel. I yesterday change my office to the head office. The manager wan me to transfer to main office so tat they cn help me moniter the pod and keep track n control of the driver. Gonna hav OT everyday soon. Cos they wan the driver to cum back to the office to give me the invoices. I today having headache. Actually DMC office people quite nice wan. Nw I know wad DMC stands for, saw it when looking I was looking at the company telephone page. DMC stands for distribution management center.

Few more days to 1st June. It's a good n bad day for me. This mth is my 3rd mth working in Keppel and next mth is my fourth mth working in Keppel. But I dunno my boss will extend my probation or confirm me sia. If no confirm me, if I take mc I doesn't have money to take sia. And I dunno my supervisor is who. Currently my supervisor is taking over kao department. I scared the office people all very ferice sia. Bad things is I dunno who order the stationary sia.I dunno when I take leave they will approve ant. They wan to moniter tat weather everything ok nt.during the meeting they actually suggest tat the invoice must come back at night n must be sort to according. One of the forwarders yell me tat they deliver the invoice till 8 plus 9 plus then they hav to sort the invoice. By the time they pass it to me it's already 10 plus sia. Like tat very tried sia. Hai. Like tat my ot must be quite alot wan. Haha. Gg to take 1 day leave on 11 June. Haha ....

Today have a meeting with the boss. It's my first ever meeting sia. The subject of my meeting is kraft operation meeting internal. All the people go wan is high rank. Only me is the warehouse coordinator. I'm under DMC dept. DMC stands for delivery control center.my dept is to plan the route after the order is been process.print invoices for each dept, sort invoices and photocopy of po, and alot of things. My job is to sort the document, raise vif for the customer to bill the forwarders, update system, do debrief and others la. My job is the most among others in my current office. Haha... I don't to transfer back to main office. I will miss my desk,zi wei they all. How sia. I scared I nt used to it. And I scared I alight at the wrong bus stop. I scared the people at the main office too ferice then scold me then I cry sia. I dunno there gt any stationary I cn take If I nid the staiinary and dunno there gt broom and dusk pan and the boss gd anot.Dunno they nid gt order any stationary wan anot.

I hav been working in keppelabt 2 mth Liao. I can't wait to Taiwan. I can't believe rat I gg to Taiwan. Haha..... A lot of thing happen in our office. And after Li yin gone, there's only Zi Wei to entertain me. And Catherine. Zi Wei from quiet until crazy liao. And I can't believe tat Gordon say we very hyper in the morning sia. I gg genting next mth lot. Then June go Taiwan. So long didn't blog le.

I last week see until poh Wei. He don't recognize me cos I cut short my hair. Can't blame him la. He working as a driver for my company as a outsource company driver. At first I thought I see wrong or maybe nt him but I today sort the doucuments I saw until his name then I confirm is him

Free jia min birthday she didn't even fucking care me n su Miao. Gt trouble or problem them Find us no problem then no cum find us. Her 21 birthday nt so many people go sia. Dunno is whose problem. Maybe some cnt go cause gt work or appointment le so cnt go. But she invite like some people tat she like nt so close with them she still invite. Maybe is her popularity is nt so gd. Everytime meet her she late. Only her bf and family cn stand her. I n su miao decided to cute ties with her. After wad she done to us. No matter wad happen to her she call us we also no answer. If she pregnant or divorced or get abused I don't fucking care. She gt treat us like friend ant

I jus realize tat sat I work from 8am to 12pm sia. I thought work until 12.30 pm sia. I didn read the contract properly sia. Omg

My work timing at keppel logistic is from 8 am to 5.30 pm. At apl logistics Is from 8.30 am to 5.30 pm. The same time for knock off but early 30 min go work at keppel loggistocs. The work load at both place is bat the same. The only difference is keppel cn on the dot knock off ant gt company bus bring us to the nearest place to near our place.but apl logistics dun hav. Almost everyday OT sand only gt company in the morning. Very tired and sleepy. Which wan is more tired? Wake up early to start work but cn knock off on time or 30 min later start work but everyday gt OT. It's up to u weather u prefer which wan. Sometime cn the company be flexible tat they cn mixed occasionally . I think I cn OT on sat cause we work alternate sat so deepen on people who work. I nid to pass this 3 mth probation first. Then I cn get bonus. Before end of the year I nid to work at 3 mth and nid to become a confirm staff then I cn get the bonus. Other I gt no bonus take. I gt 2-3 mth bonus. It's at least better then nth. And if my contract is up, I nid to see the company weather wan me ant. If no wan then I wan to find another job. How does bonus calculate

Have been working in keppel logistics for abt 1 week Liao. Hav been sorting docuement for past 1 week. Haven get my login ID n password to login to the com. They haven apply for me. N I cnt login the company system to check on my leave n timing. Sian. Working at keppel cn finish work on time n cn go to the clock in machine there wait at least 5 min before 5.30. Keppel seldom hav OT unlike apl logistics.still gt company bus incoming n outgoing.